As of late, I have felt so unmotivated for some reason... and I'm not sad or depressed or anything like that, at least not conscously. I am just unmotivated. I have watched countless hours of television and I have not read anything and I have not written anything or learned anything or gone on my jogs. Oh and by television, I mean completely mind numbing shows. I wish I could say that I have been watching the news or at least the Discovery channel but nope. HBO girl right here.
Ugh, maybe this is depression? A monotone feeling. Ughhhhhh.
I feel like I am not "growing" which for me, honestly, means that I am not learning anything... I also feel disconnected from myself. Maybe it is lack of direction. Lack of plans.
The only thing (other than the wasted time in front of the tube) that I have done is gone out to eat or drink... Which is fun but I need something more than just this.
Then, I remembered...
A couple of days ago Matt and I sat at the bar and we made a list of places we want to go to in The Burg... Bare with me:
-Museum of Art ((saving this for last (you know the saying))
-Capitol tour (really looking forward to this one)
-Midtown Theater (this is a regular movie theater but it is kinda an old school one)
-Fort Hunter Mansion tour
-Rent a pontoon
-Chocolate World tour
-Bricco ((nice restaurant (yay))
-The Taj place (Matt doesn't remember the name)
-Rose's ((restaurant (super yay))
-Downtown library (HOW HAVE I NOT ATTENDED!?!?!?!)
-Railroad Museum
-Hershey's
-Indian Echoes
And now my own personal list:
-Wake up an hour and 45min before work to read (or try to read for an hour a day)
-Begin jogging again
-Follow through on the music lessons
-Word of the day
I think that if I begin by doing some of the things on these lists, I 'll start feeling like me again. Maybe these are diversions from the bigger goals in life that I ought to be setting but for now easy and steady. Maybe next week I'll start with 5 year goals... then 10 years...
Hm.
